Holiday's are a comin

I love the month of december. Especially this years december. I have so much to do. Well some fun and not fun.

The Fun Stuff
-Buche De Noelle
-Shopping
-Going out with the girls to Santana Row
-My moms birthday hang out day
-Movies
-Christmas Caroling
-Walking with the dinosaurs show
-CHRISTMAS
-DISNEYLAND!

The Bad stuff:
-Lots of test on the last week before break
-Studying for finals and SAT's
-Freaking AP english homework

I'm gonna try to do all the bad stuff next week so I don't have to worry about it The following break week.

So life's been pretty okay. My parents are still splitting up, but they're okay with each other I guess. I don't mind any of that stuff anymore, it's a thing of the past. New year=New beginnings. So the new stuff that might change:

Home Life:
Parent's Split
Moving out of the house
Maybe moving in with my mom wherever she chooses to live
Not so much on spending.

School Life:
Actually study
Stress
SAT's
Actually paying attention in class
Make an effort to at least get to a gpa of 3.5-4.0

Love Life:
I want a boyfriend! Haha.

Questioning My Beliefs

Something that's been really ticking me off is my dad's all of a sudden holy act. He's telling us we need to go to church, this and that. He's being the worst hypocrite. Way before this year, he wouldn't even go near a church and would never do what he's doing now. I refuse to go to church. Don't get me wrong, I do love God and believe in him. I just find it ridiculous to do unneccassary things. Like confession, why tell it to a secondary person, when you can go straight to the source by praying. Why is it a sin to not go to church every single sunday? I really don't see the point in going to church everyday, when everytime you go, the same stuff is being said, and you already know what's going to be said. I pray every single day, but don't go to church. Does that make me a great sinner? Well according to my dad today, I'm an evil person for not attending church. Why am I evil, when he was the one who ultimately sinned in cheating on my mom! My dad just makes me so mad nowadays, I lost complete respect for him. He comes up with the stupidest stuff. I blame him for everything that has happened lately. I can honestly say, I hate him. He will never regain my respect. Lets hope, next year will be a better one :/

Neglectful Much?

Sorry, I've been so busy with school and such. I haven't really found the time to blog. But a lot has happened these couple of blogless days. Just to sum it all up I'll make a list:
-Parent drama
-Powderpuff
-School
-On and off crushes
-Great America

I will talk about one though. Great America. I thought it was pretty fun, but I was kind of disappointed. The Key Club rally totally killed the day. Sitting in the sun for 2 hours is not fun. We could've been riding lots of rides. But sadly, Top Gun ( the only ride I looked forward to riding) was CLOSED! Then Ed Alonzo's show is ONLY for stupid halloween haunt. And I wish I read the flyer they were handing out, we couldve gotten into halloween haunt for 20 dollars if we showed our day pass. But Sherry's too scared -__-. But the day was okay though. We got free drinks everytime we showed our wrist band :) Hello early diabetes haha.

Ah, school is just horrible. I can't keep awake in my classes. I despise school. This year I have the lowest GPA i've ever had. I have 5 B's and one A, thats awful in asian standards haha.

I can't wait for halloween. Andrea is hosting a party just for RAAKS. Lotsa food, movies, games, and trick or treating :) I'm going to be a 1950's Pin Up Sailor girl, except less slutty haha. Thank goodness I thought of just buying the seperate pieces at the mall instead of that poorly put together costume at party city. Mine looks way more authentic, better, and was VERY cheap. I got the stripped shirt for 5 bucks, and the pencil skirt for, can you believe it, 2 dollars! Can't wait :)

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And so concludes my blog. Who know's when I'll blog next time? ;)

Blogless

Hmm I haven't blogged in a long time. Well, school started in august already. It's a drag. I really don't look forward to school. I doubt anyone does. Most of my teachers are alright, but 3 really tick me off. My physics teacher is a nice guy, but his teaching skill are horrible. It seems like he doesn't know what he's talking about most of the time, and usually the students correct him. I'm one of the many clueless people in that class. The second would be my Insane Ink teacher. He plays favorites, and rants about stupid things. His grading is pretty harsh too. Lastly, my Algebra 2 teacher. He's the worst. The book explains it better than he can, so he's pretty useless.

Well on another note, I've been learning some new songs on the guitar. I find it pretty easy now, knowing the key chords. The songs I've learned and kind of memorized are:
My Alien-Simple Plan
I Can Wait Forever-Simple Plan
Crazy-Simple Plan
Day Dream Believer-The Monkees
Not Your Steppin Stone-The Monkees
I'm A Believer-The Monkees

I've also been creating youtube videos. Which you can find on my Rubberalli Channel.

So I think I'm done blogging for the day. Hopefully I'll be able to update this more often. But I think only my friends read this so hello Julie, Sherry, and Kristine.

Depression. Back so soon?

Lately I've been feeling really down. My dad's making it even worse. He keeps asking me "So when your mom and I split who are you going to live with, me or her?" He keeps saying they're going to get a divorce, and my mom's just like "Mhm sure whatever." My dad keeps ranting about how we're going to be seperated. Every single day he brings it up. It's tearing me to bits and pieces. The sad part is, I feel like I can't confide in anyone. Before I used to confide in this one guy about everything, but he's long gone out of my life. I don't know what to do, I hate feeling depressed. It hurts. They've always been joking about getting a divorce, but I'm not sure if they might for real now. I know I have friends and family out there who care about me, but lately I've felt so lonely. I'm really believing that ever lasting love doesn't exist. My own experience, and now seeing my parents drifting away. It just sucks you know? My parents keep telling me stuff about the other, and I hate being stuck in the middle. I just want things to go back when I was 4. So simple, so loving...so happy...I would give anything to go back to that time. I hope this whole divorce thing blows over and they'll just forget about it.

So? I sew.

I started working on some little outfit accomplices after some boring days passed by. These are what I've made so far. They are all hand sewn due to my sewing machine being a piece of crap :/ If I have one of those big real sewing machines, it would take me so long, and it wouldn't look as sloppy. & Yes some of the stitching is crooked but whatever,

Up Up & Awake

Good Evening. I'm staying up until 2:30am today to drop of my dad at the SF airport. I really have nothing to do at the moment so I decided to blog. Lately I've been noticing how much of a bummer this summer really is. There's basically nothing to do but to read and study, and it's pretty much a downer. I thought this was the summer that would be the best. But guess not. The past week was boring. The highlight was yesterday when Ed Alonzo accepted my friend request on his myspace. & Yes, it is his myspace, I got it off of his official site. He's due to star on America's Next Top Model season 11, the second week of showing. I can't wait to see what he's going to do. I've been obsessed with learning magic tricks. I wish I could go back to PGA and see him again.

Ah, I'm really stressed about this upcoming school year. SAT's, this year is really going to count. I hope I do very well. Right about now, I've come to realize, this blogging thing is putting me back to start on being bored. I wonder how many times I've used "bored" in this blog.

On another note, I read on AOL that Miley Cyrus yet again has some racy pics. They can be found on Perez Hiltons blog.

Oh and today I took some "magic" pictures.

Looks familiar?