I Blog For You Julie.

Herrro. So I'm blogging because Julie wants me to blog more often. Not making any promises but I will try to do it daily.

Nothing really interesting has happend to me personally yet. But Friday I had loads of fun :) Before Friday I thought going to Football games were lame, because I've only been to one with my ex sophomore year and it was really boring. But being with my friends made the football game even awesomer :) I think the next game we all will be going to would be Homecoming.

School's been pretty chill, days go by fast. Kinda awkward running into my ex and his new girlfriend, but hey it doesn't really get to me as much as I thought it would. My classes are pretty good so far, not as boring as last years. Started talking to the people I didn't really talk to in the beginning of High School and wished she did talk to them in the beginning :) I really do hope my senior year is awesome. Last year was hell for me, I hated it haha. I seriously don't feel like a senior. I feel like I still haven't grown up since freshman year. Maybe I'll still feel like a young teen when I'm freaking 60! haha. I'd be like "I don't feel like I'm 60, I still feel like a freshman in high school!"

On guys, I completely give up. I really don't have a chance with anyone haha. I'll just have to wait until college I suppose. I mean I think it's better that I'm not guy crazy this year, so I'll have more time to focus on school, my own enjoyment, and my friends :)

On family, things aren't going real well. My parents barely talk to each other and my dad thinks my mom is brain washing my brother to be against my dad. Which kind of in a way, she is doing that. I just hate it when my parent talk smack about each other and tell it to us kids. I hate it when they do that to my brother especially because he believes everyone and everything they say. They're taking advantages of him. I try to tell him and set him right but he just repeats whatever my parents tell him back to me, and tells my parents what I said, resulting in one of my parents being mad at me. They seriously need to cut this crap out. I'm scared for my siblings when I go to college. I really don't know how greatly this will affect them. It may tear them apart. So basically living arrangements from now on are one week at my moms then one week at my grandma's/dad's. I think it's easier that way so I don't have to keep lugging my crap back and forth between two houses.

I can't actually wait to start going to events for key club! Gives me an excuse everytime for me to go out with my friends to have some sweeet sweeet hanging. I especially can't wait for FRN!!! Cheap tickets to Great America, with friends, free soda, and the rides! The only thing I'm not looking forward to are SAT subject tests, finals, tests in general, college applications...oh my...

So I don't have anything else to talk about so I'm gonna end it here.

Latres on the mange!

Letting Go...

Trying to let go of someone you really care about is really really hard. Yesterday, reality set in. There's no way that my ex and I would ever get back together. He's moved on and might be seeing another girl. It's really hard news for me to take in. It just hurts so much. We've been hanging out a lot during the summer, and I just hoped and wished that we might be back together soon, and things will be just fine. But actually asking him what he felt about me was a real eye opener. I don't want to continue hoping on something that will never be again. I'm just hurting myself even more. I'm not mad at my ex, I'm trying to be happy that he's found someone else, but it's just really hard. I just hate how I set high expectations of how a day's gonna be or the year or whatever, just to have a bigger crash into disappointment. My ex is a great friend, but it's really difficult just to see him as a FRIEND and nothing more. Apart of me still has feelings for him, but apart of me wants to get over it. I told myself throughout the year that no matter what, nothing's gonna happen between the two of us, and we'll never get back together. But the feelings just kicked in all of a sudden, and I started to feel really hopeful. The hard thing is, is trying to be a good friend while he talks about this other girl, honestly I'd rather him not see her, but I can't stop it. I don't want to hate the girl just cus she's going out with my ex, but I feel the need to hate, to get over the situation. Honestly going through this and seeing my parents go through it, I've come to the conclusion that things most likely will not work out in the end between two people who used to be together. It's going to be really tough if my ex and the girl do get together to come to school everyday seeing them holding hands, kissing doing the stuff we used to do. It just makes me feel less special. Everytime I close my eyes all I see is what my ex and I used to do when we were together but then the image of the girl pops into my place. I didnt think I'd be all emo over this situation, but I'm just really hurting. What makes it even harder to get over him, is that there are no other guys in my school that are even remotely cute, and the fact that most of the guys know a secret that I preferred to have them not know. I would've saved myself a bunch of hurt and sadness if I've never gotten myself into this situation. Things woul dbe easier if I've already moved on and found a great guy of my own. But I don't see that happening anytime soon. It's really hard to hate my ex, cus he's a really good friend, which makes getting over him even harder...

What Time Is It?!

SUMMER TIME!
Yes, finally summer is here. I know I'm kinda late posting, but eh. This summer has been pretty good so far. No AP homework to worry about, no school, don't have to study for anything (well kinda.) S'all goood. I don't have much planned this summer though. Not really going on vacation anywhere either except maybe to Reno to fill my lungs with secondhand smoke for the weekend. I get to sleep a lot now. In fact that's all I do haha. I'm awake for a few hours in the day then I go back to sleep, but then I'm fully awake at night time. I guess everyone turns nocturnal in the summer eh? So I guess I'll just list some events that happened so far.

Summer Happenings
Girl hang out day - It was awesome. Watched Pushing Daisies, pigged out on pizza, chips and salsa. Filmed a new youtube video "True Life: Drivers Edd" go check it out on my YouTube page.
Julie's BBQ - Pretty awesome. It was nice to reunite the Purple Club again. It was nice to meet new people too. Rockband and other games were fun. The only non-fun part about it was I got a headache booo. Oh yea, food was good too.
SAT Prep - My cousin Alerie was testing her curriculum on me and alaine because she got a job teaching at Elite for SAT prep. It was too much for my brain to handle on a sunday, but with my cousins it's pretty fun haha. It inspired us for a new YouTube video which I hope we'll start on soon.
Movies - So I've watched 3 movies so far. They were all pretty good. I'll make a list to the right of this blog about the summer movies I've watched.

I hope I have more to fill out my summer with. Haven't had a cousin sleep over yet, but I really do hope it's soon. I've actually been excercising and changing the way I eat. I excercise almost every night, following this excercise book that was in Seventeen Magazine. Wednesdays-Fridays I walk in the park with my dad and sister. Saturdays I hope to go to the gym with my dad and my siblings. As for the eating part, I don't snack in between meals anymore. I cut down the portions of my rice (which is really hard for me to do haha). I haven't weighed myself yet, but I'm hoping I lost weight. If I GAINED weight, that'd really suck. I wish I had a scale at my house. Well anyways, blogging is starting to bore me right now, so I'm going to find something else to do now. Later days.

The Horrible Morning

So, basically today, I have had the worst morning ever. I woke up around 5am, went to the bathroom and remembered to check my SAT scores. So I did, and when I opened it, I was extremely disappointed, its like the level of happiness in my body went to like -1239273. I can't believe I scored LOWER than my previous SAT :/ So I guess I'll just have to take it again in freaking october D:

It's as if everything is being blown in everyone's faces. Well, I mean college stuff. This is the point where in a couple of months, we need to start applying. It's times like these where I wish we could stop time for a while to catch up.

So for guy updates, I'm really confused. I keep switching from guy to guy. One day I'll like guy A, then switch over to guy B. Because I'm "hot and I'm cold, it's yes then it's know, guy a's in then he's out, guy b's up and he's down" aha.

Poop, I really want time to slow down for a second. I still need to raise my grade immensely.

So that's basically all I wanted to blog about, not much, but it is something.

The Tables Have Turned

So lately, my dad has been acting more like a love sick teenager than an adult lately, and that's a very bad thing. It's especially stressing me out. Here's the deal, my dad has a girlfriend, because he cheated on my mom, but my parents technically aren't divorced yet. So my dad keeps asking me if I care about his happiness, to which I reply yes. Then he tells me he wants to marry her. I tell him it's a big mistake, and he doesn't want to listen to me. Before when I was with my ex, my dad said love doesn't exist, and it never lasts. In a way my dad was right after everything was over between me and my ex. But today he's contradicting himself. He keeps telling me that he loves her. It's making me sick. My dad is going to make the biggest mistake of his life if he decides to marry this dumb lady. Okay I know you might think I'm too harsh in calling that lady dumb when I don't even know her, but here are my reasons:
1. She flirted and got with a man who she already knows has kids, and a wife
2. She has her own damn kids and husband
3. She ruined my life, my mom's and my siblings.
That should be enough reason to call her dumb.

So today my dad had the nerve to call that dumb lady...you know, I'm not going to call her a "lady" she doesn't deserve that title, from now on I shall refer to her as a "whore" that suits her character. Continuing...he called the whore while I was in the room. And my dad acting so clingy, he was getting mad about why she isn't at home and why she's out with I'm guessing her husband. I was extremely disgusted with this. My dad needs to snap out of this love trap. Honestly, love makes everyone stupid and ignorant. So while my dad was talking to the whore, he asked me to massage his feet. My reply in an irritated and angry voice: "No not while you're talking to...HER." Then he kicked me and gave me a mean look. So I just stomped out of there, and I could still hear him arguing with the whore. I mean my dad needs to look at this:
1. He wants to marry her, yet he yells at her, just like he did to my mom.
2. He thinks he's in love, but he's just becoming clingy
3. The only reason he wants to marry her is because he said "I won't find anyone else, I need to be with someone"

Ugh. When I try to tell him my opnion on this, he just gets mad and stops talking to me. One day at the mall I really got fed up with him asking about if he should marry the whore. I got really mad so I just said "I don't know, quit asking me, it's your life." Because he keeps asking me if I want him to be happy.
Another issue I realized is that this whole divorce thing is kind of contributing to my low grades. I always thought it would never be based on this, but most of the time during class, I'm usually thinking of how my life would be during the divorce, thinking of why my parents are doing this. It's an emotional distraction.
So I'm ending this here. What I learned from my dad is:
1. Love turns you into an idiot
2. No one likes hearing the truth
3. This divorce is a major distraction for me

Thank goodness for blogs. I just let a whole lot of steam out.

Pink Panther 2 Movie is Racist

So today I watched Pink Panther 2 and I thought it was pretty funny. Steve Martin is an awesome actor. Even though there was one part where it was HECKA racist, it was funny. In one scene Clouseau meets with this other japanese detective and goes "So what is the conclusion my little yellow friend?" Then he gets called into I guess this manner lady's office and says its not right to call asians "little yellow friends" and then Clouseau goes, "Well it's true, but what really hate is their driving, they can't see over the steering wheel." Overall it wa pretty witty, I advise everyone to watch it.

Aside from the movie I had to wake up early today like at 9 haha yea that's early for me during the break. Went to the greatmall to eat mcdonalds. I love their pancakes, it's legendary.Went into the theater and saw JASON SEGEL...well his poster anyways haha. I want them to make a HIMYM movie, that'd be legendary. Then walked around for a bit and watched Pink Panther. Afterwards just went back home to sleep. I finished my english homework finally. And now here I am, and this concludes my short blog

Have a legendary day,

Allison

Truths

Yesterday:
Yea so I didn't get to blog yesterday because I was too tired and I had a headache when I came home. But Julie's house was pretty fun. Met her soon to be boyfriend Kevin and his friend Brandon. They're pretty cool people too. Made prank phone calls, talked, ate ice cream and played card games for truths. It got pretty intense between Julie and Kevin haha. Then I found out some stuff that really made me mad at a certain person, but most likely I'm not going to do anything to him for doing that. Just got to let it go, because it's in the past already, but surely ruined my reputation (if I even had one to begin with). I have the videos on my myspace, so you can go check it out. I dont know what the prank calls got deleted though. It was fun seeing Julie again and meeting her friends. It was also nice to find another HIMYM lover haha.

After my dad picked me up, we went to go eat at Hsing Hsing & Ling Ling's Restaurant (aka Panda Express) Love their food, it's awesome. When I was ordering I told the lady I wanted "gyoza" and she was all like "What? I don't know what you're talking about?" Then I kept repeating myself until my dad shouted across the restaurant, "WRONG LANGUAGE ALLISON!" and I looked at the menu and it said "pot stickers" so yea I felt stupid haha. Then afterwards we went to Seafood City to get some stuff. When we were walking out of the parking lot my dad tripped and he tried to play it off like there was something stuck on his shoe. I couldn't stop cracking up haha. Got some cereal, dibs, milk, the good stuff then headed back home. Uploaded the videos and fell asleep for a while, then woke up abruptly because just remembered ABDC was on, so I rushed downstairs in time. My prediction for the top two is obviously Beat freaks and Quest Crew. Ultimately Beatfreaks is going to take the whole thing. But hopefully the show doesn't do that stupid crap they always do and eliminate one of the temas just because they need to have one team from the west and one from the east or whatever. But Beatfreaks dance to "Hot n Cold" was legendary. Then I spent a couple of hours online and doing my english homework, then went to bed. But had a pretty cool dream.

The Dream:
So I was at school, but it was in China for some odd reason. My friends sherry, kristine, and I were at tutoring. There was some type of performance beng held after school at this chinese temple. At first it was a bunch of filipino people dancing and then The All-American Rejects played a concert. They hung out with me, sherry and kritine afterwards at denny's, and it turned into the music video for their song "Gives You Hell." It was pretty cool, but then I woke up.

This morning:
Again when I woke up this morning I found coinsin my bed. Yesterday when I took a nap, I found a dime in my hand and I didn't know where it came from. Well after waking up I went downstairs to eat Cap'n Crunch (awesome cereal) then watched some youtube. Went back upstairs to start on my english homework and written one page so far. By the looks of it I'm halfway done. Then I took another nap, and here I am ta daaa!

Well this concludes my blog and I hope everyone has a legendary day,
Allison