Let's go to the mall TODAY

Hmm so today was a pretty chill Saturday. It was very unusual to wake up to sunshine at 9 in the morning. Yea, I actually woke up that early on a Saturday. Went to Jollibee with my sister and Dad. Went to Forever21 & found some awesome mirrored aviator glassed for only 5.80 compared to the crappy ones that broke from Target that were like 10 bucks. Then bought myself a beige scarf to go with my leather jackets. Walked around the mall a bit, and bumped into Kristine & Sherry. Walked around with them for a bit to look for Sherry's NHS Induction outfit. Left when my dad told me it was time to go.

After the mall, we went to Fry's electronics where I played drums on Guitar Hero. I swear, I could learn how to play so many songs on the real drums just by watching it. I could move a tv to where my drums are, have the game just play, while I follow along on the real drums haha. So after a while of free gamage, we went to Walmart to get my feminine needs :P Bought some pads, foundation and lipstick. Went to eat at McDonalds for lunch, and got a My Little Pony toy :P But it was defective because it looked like it had a drawn crooked eyebrow on it. Must be a chola pony I suppose. Went to dollar tree after, got loads of awesome candy :)

Now that brings me back home. I finished my homework right away like the good girl I am :) Took a 2 hour nap, ate dinner and POOF I'm here blogging because I'm so bored. I know I should be working on my personal statement, but thats what tomorrow's for! My cousin's going to help me put the finishing touches. My only hope is, is that she doesn't make me write another draft haha.

I should probably find something else to do, so latres on the manges!

Oh so long ago...

Wow, so I keep lying to myself about blogging more often. I guess because nothing really happens to me that's really interessting. Same old same old everyday...sigh...so let me briefly recap on the things that happened so far.

HALLOWEEN

Halloween was pretty good, not as great as last year. It really didn't feel like it was actually Halloween, and the day went by too quickly :( I had fun hanging out with DRAAKS though. I as Peter Pan, which people mistakenly thought I was Robin Hood at school -__-. I give myself props though, it didn't COMPLETELY fall apart haha.

WEB DESIGN

This class is actually pretty fun now. It's basically like editing your myspace all day. My eyes really start to hurt after starring at the screen for a long time though. I'm really proud of my first web page layout we had to do in that class :) We're working on our personal web pages right now so I can't wait to be done with that too.

PANORAMIC PICTURES

Oh my goodness. It was fun skipping class and hanging out with friends while waiting but, it took to damn long. We're all standing in the sun, its hot, and some people weren't cooperating. You could see how pissed off the photographer was at the goofballs in the back. People got kicked out one by one, it was like a game. I really liked our tee shirts though, all props go to Drea :) I really want her to upload those group photos of us, they're cuttteee!

COLLEGE APPS/PERSONAL STATEMENT

Sheesh, still working on it. I wrote how many drafts, about 3 for my personal statement because my aunt told me too. In a way I'm glad she had me write 3 different ones, because I think I finally got it down, but still working on it. I'm asking my cousin, who's an English major on some tips this sunday, so hopefully that'll be the last bit of advice then I'll be ready to turn that sucker in. For the most part I'm done iwth the App, I just need to pay and put in the personal statement. I really do hope I get in to at least ONE UC. I'd be really devasted to be rejected by all of em :(

FAMILY

My family situation has been okay so far, no really big fights or anything like that between my parents, although they don't talk to each other. I think it's better that way. I'd rather have them not talk to each other at all than constantly fighting with each other. As for my uncle, he's in pretty bad shape :( I really want to be optimistic for him, but knowing he has only 6 months to a year to live, it's really hard. I'm going to make sure to spend a lot of time with him while I still can. I'm glad that my cousin from San Diego is coming here for thanksgiving. It'll surely make my uncle happy to see the whole family like the olden days when everything was right :/ It's sad how easily my family is falling apart.

BOYS?

Yea...so I'm pretty much confused on guys. I kinda like someone, but then after finding something out...I'm not too sure anymore. Then theres this other dude that no way in heck it's going to happen but...argh. I think I should just give up on guys for a while, focus more on school, family and friends....psh..hah, if only. I really wish there would be a bus load of hot white foreign students from europe or australia that transfer over to PHHS. That'd be a dream come true...

I think that's enough blogging right now. I just blogged cus I had nothing better to do, well I do have homework, but really....no one likes to do homework when theyre bored :P Toodle loo!

What a Plain Life I Have...

So there's nothing going on really in my life. It's pretty boring. I get through the week with Glee, watching movies online, & sleeeeping.

School's been pretty boring. There's a lot of people sick lately...I really don't want to get sick D: For clubs, theres A LOT more people joining Key & CBC, but sadly no hot white guys :( It'd be nice to find me a nice guy. There are two guys I kind of have my eye on, but seriously I have no chance with them haha.

So it's the weekend finally. It doesn't feel like a friday today, I feel like I need to go to school tomorrow again. But tomorrow I'm watching Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs with my dad and sibs, it's going to make me hungry while watching it.

Well, my hands hurting right now, so I guess I'll end it here. Toodles!

ELEVATORS?!

Morning: I woke up around 730 am, at some breakfast and told my mom about my dream that I had, about my sister murdering my dog Jack. After, I washed dishes. I was singing while washing, and I was looking at my window. My gaze scanned over to my "Wonderland" area, and my eyes were met with BIG cat eyes starring back at me. It hecka scared me! The cat looked exactly like the cheshire cat from Alice in Wonderland except it was gray. After that incident, I got ready to go to the Asian Museum/SF. But before we left I took my bike for a spin and put Jack in my basket. He kept shivering like he was scared. I wouldn't blame him, I wobble when I need to balance on my bike. But I do secure him in by looping his leash numerous times around the basket so it creates some kind of seatbelt. Then after biking for a while, we left to go to the bart station.

Bart: So...I'm not too fond of the bart after hearing crazy things that already happened on it. But we had to go to get to SF. Met my uncle and aunt there, and we boarded. I mean the bart is fun to ride on, but I get scared if a crazy person boards it too. While going through the tunnel I kept reminding my aunt about The Grudge scene where the lady looks out the window of a bus and the Grudge's face appears.

Starbucks: So first stop in SF was Starbucks. I got a kids hot chocolate (which by the ways was not hot) and some coffee cake. My sister got some coffee, which is weird because she's only 12, and she's already a regular coffee drinker. After Starbucks we walked to the museum. Along the way we found the Orpheum theater and BIG posters of my sister's favorite musical she hasn't seen before, "Wicked" so that part really cheered her up.

Asian Museum: The asian museum was BORING! All they had were sculptures and articles of clothing. Nothing really interesting to look at. The only thing interesting to look at were all the hot white guys. All the hot white guys are in SF, why can't they all be in San Jose?!

Lunch: After the museum we wanted some chinese food, so we walked down the street until we found chinese writing, and tadaaa, a chinese restaurant. Ate there and finished everything because we were so darned hungry. I got my fortune from my fortune cookie and it said "Travelling to the south will bring you unexpected happiness" which I interpreted as "DISNEYLAND!" Because Disneyland is in southern california :).

Mall: So after lunch we all walked towards Westfield mall, the mall with all the escalators in a circle leading to the top. I really had the urge to go to the bathroom so I just told my family that I'd meet them at the top, since the signs on the mall said they only had bathrooms on the first floor. So after I went to the bathroom, I passed by some shiney doors and headed up the escalators. It took me freaking 15 minutes just to get up to the 6th floor since there were a lot of people who just stood on the escalator enjoying their ride up. Once I finally got up, my family said they were going to go downstairs, and there was a bathroom on the 6th floor the whole time. Not wanting to go on those darned escalators again, I looked for the elevators. Being in Nordstrom I knew they would have elevators. I spotted it and we went in it. Once the elevator opened, I saw where I had just went to the bathroom, and saw that the shiney doors were actually the elevators, which I could've taken the whole time. My uncle laughed hysterically at me. I'm so stupid -__-

Heading Home: So I was basically pooped, and we went back to the Bart station to wait for the Bart. While waiting I felt tempted to jump down on the tracks then get back up before the bart came, but I knew that'd be a stupid thing to do. So when the Bart did come, I sat in a chair and I dozed off, but I kept waking up to make sure no one was watching me sleep, because I hate it when people do that. If I know people are watching me sleep I can't sleep. So I was getting crankier and crankier, due to my lack of sleep the night before. Finally getting off of the Bart my mom suggested "Okay lets all go ride the bart back to SF!" I got really grumpy when she said that, so I just started walking down the steps to the parking lot without a word. Thankfully she just brought us home. I wouldve seriously just fallen asleep on the Bart and they wouldve left me there.

So in conclusion, I need to make note of where elevators are in any place & I hate taking the Bart.

I Blog For You Julie.

Herrro. So I'm blogging because Julie wants me to blog more often. Not making any promises but I will try to do it daily.

Nothing really interesting has happend to me personally yet. But Friday I had loads of fun :) Before Friday I thought going to Football games were lame, because I've only been to one with my ex sophomore year and it was really boring. But being with my friends made the football game even awesomer :) I think the next game we all will be going to would be Homecoming.

School's been pretty chill, days go by fast. Kinda awkward running into my ex and his new girlfriend, but hey it doesn't really get to me as much as I thought it would. My classes are pretty good so far, not as boring as last years. Started talking to the people I didn't really talk to in the beginning of High School and wished she did talk to them in the beginning :) I really do hope my senior year is awesome. Last year was hell for me, I hated it haha. I seriously don't feel like a senior. I feel like I still haven't grown up since freshman year. Maybe I'll still feel like a young teen when I'm freaking 60! haha. I'd be like "I don't feel like I'm 60, I still feel like a freshman in high school!"

On guys, I completely give up. I really don't have a chance with anyone haha. I'll just have to wait until college I suppose. I mean I think it's better that I'm not guy crazy this year, so I'll have more time to focus on school, my own enjoyment, and my friends :)

On family, things aren't going real well. My parents barely talk to each other and my dad thinks my mom is brain washing my brother to be against my dad. Which kind of in a way, she is doing that. I just hate it when my parent talk smack about each other and tell it to us kids. I hate it when they do that to my brother especially because he believes everyone and everything they say. They're taking advantages of him. I try to tell him and set him right but he just repeats whatever my parents tell him back to me, and tells my parents what I said, resulting in one of my parents being mad at me. They seriously need to cut this crap out. I'm scared for my siblings when I go to college. I really don't know how greatly this will affect them. It may tear them apart. So basically living arrangements from now on are one week at my moms then one week at my grandma's/dad's. I think it's easier that way so I don't have to keep lugging my crap back and forth between two houses.

I can't actually wait to start going to events for key club! Gives me an excuse everytime for me to go out with my friends to have some sweeet sweeet hanging. I especially can't wait for FRN!!! Cheap tickets to Great America, with friends, free soda, and the rides! The only thing I'm not looking forward to are SAT subject tests, finals, tests in general, college applications...oh my...

So I don't have anything else to talk about so I'm gonna end it here.

Latres on the mange!

Letting Go...

Trying to let go of someone you really care about is really really hard. Yesterday, reality set in. There's no way that my ex and I would ever get back together. He's moved on and might be seeing another girl. It's really hard news for me to take in. It just hurts so much. We've been hanging out a lot during the summer, and I just hoped and wished that we might be back together soon, and things will be just fine. But actually asking him what he felt about me was a real eye opener. I don't want to continue hoping on something that will never be again. I'm just hurting myself even more. I'm not mad at my ex, I'm trying to be happy that he's found someone else, but it's just really hard. I just hate how I set high expectations of how a day's gonna be or the year or whatever, just to have a bigger crash into disappointment. My ex is a great friend, but it's really difficult just to see him as a FRIEND and nothing more. Apart of me still has feelings for him, but apart of me wants to get over it. I told myself throughout the year that no matter what, nothing's gonna happen between the two of us, and we'll never get back together. But the feelings just kicked in all of a sudden, and I started to feel really hopeful. The hard thing is, is trying to be a good friend while he talks about this other girl, honestly I'd rather him not see her, but I can't stop it. I don't want to hate the girl just cus she's going out with my ex, but I feel the need to hate, to get over the situation. Honestly going through this and seeing my parents go through it, I've come to the conclusion that things most likely will not work out in the end between two people who used to be together. It's going to be really tough if my ex and the girl do get together to come to school everyday seeing them holding hands, kissing doing the stuff we used to do. It just makes me feel less special. Everytime I close my eyes all I see is what my ex and I used to do when we were together but then the image of the girl pops into my place. I didnt think I'd be all emo over this situation, but I'm just really hurting. What makes it even harder to get over him, is that there are no other guys in my school that are even remotely cute, and the fact that most of the guys know a secret that I preferred to have them not know. I would've saved myself a bunch of hurt and sadness if I've never gotten myself into this situation. Things woul dbe easier if I've already moved on and found a great guy of my own. But I don't see that happening anytime soon. It's really hard to hate my ex, cus he's a really good friend, which makes getting over him even harder...

What Time Is It?!

SUMMER TIME!
Yes, finally summer is here. I know I'm kinda late posting, but eh. This summer has been pretty good so far. No AP homework to worry about, no school, don't have to study for anything (well kinda.) S'all goood. I don't have much planned this summer though. Not really going on vacation anywhere either except maybe to Reno to fill my lungs with secondhand smoke for the weekend. I get to sleep a lot now. In fact that's all I do haha. I'm awake for a few hours in the day then I go back to sleep, but then I'm fully awake at night time. I guess everyone turns nocturnal in the summer eh? So I guess I'll just list some events that happened so far.

Summer Happenings
Girl hang out day - It was awesome. Watched Pushing Daisies, pigged out on pizza, chips and salsa. Filmed a new youtube video "True Life: Drivers Edd" go check it out on my YouTube page.
Julie's BBQ - Pretty awesome. It was nice to reunite the Purple Club again. It was nice to meet new people too. Rockband and other games were fun. The only non-fun part about it was I got a headache booo. Oh yea, food was good too.
SAT Prep - My cousin Alerie was testing her curriculum on me and alaine because she got a job teaching at Elite for SAT prep. It was too much for my brain to handle on a sunday, but with my cousins it's pretty fun haha. It inspired us for a new YouTube video which I hope we'll start on soon.
Movies - So I've watched 3 movies so far. They were all pretty good. I'll make a list to the right of this blog about the summer movies I've watched.

I hope I have more to fill out my summer with. Haven't had a cousin sleep over yet, but I really do hope it's soon. I've actually been excercising and changing the way I eat. I excercise almost every night, following this excercise book that was in Seventeen Magazine. Wednesdays-Fridays I walk in the park with my dad and sister. Saturdays I hope to go to the gym with my dad and my siblings. As for the eating part, I don't snack in between meals anymore. I cut down the portions of my rice (which is really hard for me to do haha). I haven't weighed myself yet, but I'm hoping I lost weight. If I GAINED weight, that'd really suck. I wish I had a scale at my house. Well anyways, blogging is starting to bore me right now, so I'm going to find something else to do now. Later days.